Letter – 3

Dear Richard,

Your son will be hanging out with hoy ploy; fellas that will support each other “up the line”its not what you know, its who you know”- and who said that?  You did of course!
It was his “idea” to switch schools; so he does have “ambition”; hidden perhaps but the “idea of being rich was/is the motivator of course”
Rich people do not make money working; they make it by “investing” as you well know!  your mother wouldnt know that of course! why?  something missing of course! she only knows that money is meant to “spend” -when she leaves this world, what will be seen on the “balance sheet” will be a pile of 00000000’s.
I am thrilled to know that Nicholas “on his own” made it happen!  you will find a load of aaa’s and bbbb’s in his performance in his new environment.
Why? because of self motivation; nothing can complete with self motivation; how do I know?  it appears that all of my brothers are/were self motivators – perhaps my generation  – taking nothing and making something out of it – however, what I wrote in a way doesnt show that literally since I personally directly  and indirectly “made it possible for them and some of their kids” to live in socalled “grand manner”!
Who knows what the “future may bring”?
Only “the Shadow Knows” of course.
Nothing “ventured; nothing gained”     The “wisdom” of my channel which existed with me “from birth of course”  -guided my life, indirectly your life, the life of your mother – had absolutely nothing to do with your brother Steven of course;  his is a wasted life – like many “wasted lives” – why his soul decided to “come back” is beyond me, other than to curse me and perhaps your mother for being “bad parents” which neither of us were in truth.  Neither of us abused him in any way; and that is true for you also.  I accuse your mother of course when she “forced me to allow her to go to college” –  she set it all up of course – Mrs Weiss , tuition that money  I made was there  for four yrs.   If I refused at that time, what would have happened to our marriage?  The answer was there wide open for anyone to see, my marriage would have “been hell”; propf of t hat that result happened ten yrs latter, as soon as she was proclaimed as a PHd  –  I wasnt in her “class” any longer -sje went looking for PHd’s; I was now expemdable.  Loyalty? Love? what’s that?
Human nature is it human?  Or is it something else?
Egpcemtricity rules our world ; the world of “human nature”  Your mother is a perfect example of “human nature”  –
and you know others who are also examples of “human nature” to be sure.
You have heard this story many times of course, most likely tired of me repeating it, that I am sure, so why do I continue doing so?
I do it so because I  cant believe that “people could be like that”! even though I am proof of it (your mother of course) – !  How can people be so “selfish”?
but then my mother your bobie was like tht to the highest degree, on the same level as your mother but more so; she would cut your throat for a “buck”  Your uncle is like that also!  What kind of people are like that?
I know that you can rattle off names of people like that of course, and say “that s par for the course” they are “not exceptions at all; the are the rule; the social system that we live in today, and yesterday, nothing new, nothing to consider or feel upset over!
Well I am upset over it have been for years  – even though I have experienced it beyond the confines of  my personal life, i.e. Stephen, and your mother;  my brother George who I never liked even as a kid – his egocentricity was noticeable at a very young age –  I liked my father since he “had no ego at all” – worked with him for six yrs; never saw any resemblance to ego at all.
My brother Dave is also an egoless type of person; totally dominated by his firstand second wife of course – he is an admirable person –
So it seems that I refuse to “bend” to the notion of “that is the way it is” because that “notion” is contemptible to the highest degree and I will not “lower” my self esteem by “bowing down to it”
Another reason why I want “my own blog” ; my site is practically written off since I have no control over it – allowed contemptible egos to run it !
Altruism does not exist on this planet earth  – never did exist on this planet eartj – because planet earth”s frequency is “not conducive to “truth”
Truth in its “true sense” and the word Ego – have nothing in common!
Truth requires “altruism” – thus where there is no altruizm there is no “truth”!
Why does truth require altruism, which when properly defined means  – “loving others first, before loving oneself”   Something that is not only strange, but incomprehensible for even the most informed educated person alive today!
THUS TRUTH CANNOT EXIST ON THE PLANE OF EXISTENCE WE CALL MOTHER EARTH, regarding the behavior of socalled human beings.
SELFISHNESS is the rule, not the exception!
How do I know?  I have lived it all of my life – up to the age of 90!
Sensitivity is what’s missing of course and what is sensitivity?  Egos lack sensitivity because with it there cannot be any ego!
Egos thrive on the fact that egos lack sensitivity.  i.e. my mother , your mother lacked sensitivity to the highest degree because when it came to who “gets their way” – they always come first!  Regardless of “what is etc.
In truth, people like my mother, your mother, had to depend on the “power over” others to feed their ego needs; they lacked their own inner powers; people like that are mighty sickminded people and you  and  I see tht all of the time of course!
What happened with bobie’s soul when her physical ego body died; that is a very good question mark of course.  She fought death mightedly since I was there witnessing that event; it was frightening, fierce, and tortures –  I dont want to witness any event like that in the future; she was not peaceful.;- Milton had a person come that was able to prepare her properly for her new life!  As soon as he arrived, he used good energy that allowed her to “die peacefully”.
Your mother already prepared herself when she came to me as you well know, and asked for forgiveness; which I gave her.  I did not forgive her “acts” since they could”not be forgiven”;  egos are not meant to be forgiven, but destroyed!
The socalled “evils of the world” are ego motivations of course – Satan<Devil and similar terms are all egocentric methods of control  – bobie, and your mother, exemplified these evil forces – unknowingly of course!
Lying, cheating, stealing and a host of other “evils” –  masterly connived to appear as if “normal”;-  hoodwinks people into believing that  –  its ok since “everyone does it”

Letter – 1

Hi Richard,

He is not an old decrepid man – even when I couldnt see, walk, etc. I was “not an old decrepit man” – sounds like somethings missing doesnt it?  Of course, cant see, cant hear, cant walk very well, sounds like an “old decrepit man” to me doesnt it?
True! as a rule “it is an old decrepit man if I believed that “i was an old decrepit man” which I never did despite the “evidence”  How is that possible?
If the “evidence is there right in front of me and others why shouldnt I believe it”?
Well the truth is I didnt believe it; I knew being psychically oriented that what I was experiencing was the result of punishing my body,mind,emotions, and not my spirituality – my spirituality stayed “constant” “my psychic self stayed constant”
So what is the “moral of the story”?
The moral of the story is simply:  “who I really am is “not determined by my physical body and physical senses”; that is true for the people “who dont know the difference, I do of course and what has transpired in my life of which you personally was heavily involved with as a witness and helper of course –
IS PROOF POSITIVE  of  the “forces” that made this transformation possible. He of course was also  –  he saw all of the ups and downs of course; watched me all of the time, took me where I had to go etc. etc.
I had you, I had him – and fortunately found two fellas who showed up mysteriously helping me move, and one of them assisting me in my new home at times of course!
So epitome’s do happen in different ways of course  –  the problem of course with epitome’s is that  they do not happen wherein they can be “recognized” thus the person gains very little “understanding” which the epitomes were “meant to convey”
As a person “grows in consciousness, epitome’s and other magical means of communication”  the reliance on the egoworld slowly dies out until he/she “knowing the differences” has complete control of their lives.
The reason I was able to overcome “all of the odds” –  not get involved with egocentric professionals who mean well of course, but are unsuitable to go beyond their own limited understanding of “what is, just is” which is a “false belief system because, “what is, just is” according to the egoworld is based on “false premises”; another reason I want a blog –
My blog hopefully will be my channels  blog of course, not mine.  Its purpose of course is to make “people aware” that there is a SUBTLE force in this world that prompts the changes that happens in this world constantly and that “no ego” since it is very “limited in knowledge, understanding and discernment” is capable of coping with this “fact”  Our educational systems are 100% invested in the world of egocentricity!


Letter – 2

Hi Richard,

Had a very long talk with Nicholas concerning his “future”; made him “realize” that no student likes the courses that are “forced” on them. I didnt of course both in grammar and high school, however I did it the best I could to graduate both of course!  Its unfortunate that the school system is so “decadent” that it does not prepare kids even right up to and beyond college for them “to make a living” why?
You got out of college, could you earn a living, of course you found “jobs” to support yourself,; but   for me you didnt need a college education for that, and the kids leaving college if not technical or professional, will find that out also.
So I made Nicholas “realize” that he must “prepare himself “on his own” not depend on his college degree, though he will need it of course – you have three degrees, and that is impressive of course to the point you did find a good position working for our government, and reach a prominent position like your mother of course  – I am sure that if antisemitizm did not force me out of the job I had as a civil servant I would have also reached the socalled peak position in our government.
But then if I did, who knows what my three brothers and their kids would be doing today for a living  – as you know, the hardware store that I founded, put George into a real estate business; the business bought aload of property from the landlord we had at the time; Bobie bought a business for Dave a hardware business in the North End where he and Kenny made a very good living – Milton of course worked with George until George left the business to expand his real estate business.
The guy who started it all  – just dissapeared from the business world at the age of 50 and you know who that is of course!
Anyway – your son now “knows the score”  – its up to him to architect his future which I outlined to him this morning  – which is , get the best marks in subjects you do not like –  put time into things that you “do like” – which I call journalizm/communication/public relations etc. plus the advances in the socalled tech world  –
Once he has completed the required crappo, he then will know very well, what courses he should pursue, not wait until the last moment! he must stay abrreast of all of the changes that happen while in college, will in graduate work, etc. etc.
The same reason why you left your job at this stage of the “game”; to pursue your passion.
I pursued my passion with the help of your mother of course; by divorcing me she gave me my freedom which I embraced with “all of my heart”
Before Sara; my mother your bobie called all of the shots”  I got married to get away from her of course but still “fell into the pit”  –   bobie was not subtle; your mother used “her power” in a very subtle manner – as long as she was “subtle” I could live with her; when she became”botie” that was the end of our marriage
So hopefully your son will in time find what he really enjoys learning, practicing and whatever; find his passion,things he likes to talk about, listen to, write about etc. once he does that “he is on his way”
A little anecdote, you know we opened another hardware store while my father was still alive; my intention of course was to have a “string of hardware stores, ambition I never lacked, – when my father died, I lost complete interest in the hardware business.  I never got over his sudden death; he was not sick at the time; he did have an agina problem with his heart circulation, but not bedridden etc.
I loved my father as much as a loathed my mother so when he died, I had to get out of his grasp/house  – Got attracted to Sara, got infatuated which resulted in a marriage of course!