Hi little Joe,
These are very good insightful questions.
First of all our personal soul never changes; remains the same for thousands and thousands of incarnations. And whether we know it or not, it is always functioning for us; its our “intuition”; unfortunately very few people pay attention to “their intuition” thus does “not exist” for many, perhaps most people. There is no room for intuition and ego its either one or the other and most if not all people rather listen to their ego than their intuition! why? because the ego is Las Vegus with lots of “hot dames” and “hot muscle men” etc. lots and lots of great food which in most cases should not be eaten, in other words the glitter, lights takes over a person’s life since its sensuous in all respects;the soul is not sensuous in all respects so most if not all people “just pay no attention to it?
You have heard the saying “what’s in it for me” – in other words whats the “payoff” nothing? then the hell with it. Our ego gives “us a payoff; the soul does not give us a payoff, not the way the ego does.
Also children mimic their parents who mimics their parents, its called culture, tradition, and “being a nice son or daughter”
Personally coming in “aware” I always “disputed with my mother since I did not agree with her behavior patterns, beliefs etc., obviously I came in more aware than the ordinary child. My soul was very active during my childhood, most souls relinquished its authority to egocentrically inclined parents, who did likewise with their parents – result? egocentricity took complete charge of young impressionable minds.
Because of that tyranny I rebelled not outwardly since that was a dangerous thing to do, but inwardly suffering inner torment for years! Why? I was living between “a rock and a hard place” – my parents were egos, my teachers were egos, my friends were egos, noone to really talk to, “everyone appeared to me to be egos” I turned to the Rosicruscians when I was only sixteen yrs old but faltered as I got older since I found noone I could discuss the teachings with.
I did not express myself properly when I said that I got in touch with my soul/inner self at the age of fifty – I was always in touch with who I am, my problem was that I was living in an ego world, ran an ego business, married an ego woman, all my friends were egos – at the age of fifty I and my wife of twenty three years divorced, when that happened I also left my prosperous business – both my sons were “out of the house” on their own, I was for the first time in my life a “free man” in all respect.
I channeled/soul oriented all of my life, made a fortune businesswise for my family, started three businesses all successfuil by the age of twenty seven yrs old.
Those were family enterprises I was living with my parents at that time. Suffered terribly when I lost my faather who I loved dearly; was mistreated horribly by my mother who I disdained, not her, but her terrible egocentricity –
Started my own business when I got married and was very successful with it. The woman I married prove to me and herself that she was a Benedict Arnold. Had no loyalty to me or to her own family; she tried to outdo the machinations of her mother-in-law for treachery of the highest order, however our divorce saved my life – my body emotions mind was in very bad shape during that period of time, my channel/soul told me that unless I follow “its advice to the core” I will die within one yrs time. Overnight what I ate before was gone completely – I became a vegetarian, ate fish, veggies and fruit and that was over forty years ago; also went to California to learn, listen and follow to the “t” everything about “how to get healthy”; also cleaned my body mind emotions out at the same time – that process continue for many years since my body was completely shot to hell.
I am now 90 yrs old and feel great for my age! In regard to incarnations, and we have had thousands of them of course – we are “supposed to learn “something spirituall:”f rom ‘ each incarnation; some do some dont – the ones that do “grow in consciousness, and that CAN BE MEASURED, other go the other way or some just stay the same – so it appears that the word “consciousness” which ego in general “has no conception of” is the determining factor, for every new lifetime. It appears that “I came in with a higher consciousness than most new souls come in with; the reason that even as a child I contested my mothers idea of “truth” constantly. Didnt realize how “egocentric, powerful, vicious” she would be – it came to a point when she said to me “right or wrong I AM THE BOSS, you have to listen to me” Well that did it of course! We dont need a political dictatorship to control our lives, all we need is parents like my mother! My father was hardly seen, he was working all of the time since those were the depression days – left the house at 5 AM came home at 11 PM – Sundays they went visiting relatives, I and my brothers shleped along of course. The mother, not the father, ran the show, she was the boss of the kids not the father.
Once a new soul reincarnates, the “old” incarnates are put asleep, not lost but simply “put to sleep” – what is not put the sleep however, is the state of consciousness at the point of death, that remains “intact”. In other words and I am not talking about achievements of any sort, like academic degrees etc. they do not have any connection with “consciousness” none whatsoever. Everything is based on “vibration”; the word consciousness and vibration is THE SAME, hardly anyone knows that of course! Vibration rules the world, our planet and everything else that is matter and non matter!
Up to the age of six yrs old; children are constantly commuting with their “soul”; are very very psychic, intuitive etc. Lose at after the age of six when they “discover” unless they “play the game like adults do” they will not be accepted in the new society they found themselves in. What seperated me from the usual six yr oldrs is that I never liked or agreed with the society I grew up in, wanted no part of it, secluded myself from it – I did play children games, I made sure that I appeared as if I was everyone else, but down deep knew I wasnt!
At the age of 90 I do want to prove that I can “make a difference even at that advanced stage in my life, the reason I wanted my site,but I did not take into consideration the dishonesty of people I needed for that task; I was constantly duped – Adam/Joe did admirable work but needs expertise that they did not have and there is no more money to finish the job. The last guy stopped when he no longer got paid. Both Adam/Joe are doing it gratis for my sake, and perhaps even their sake.
I am hoping that once my blog gets going, I will attract the one or two percent of enlighted people in this world who “do have the expertize to finish the site.
The site is for humanities sake; the reason that I incarnated – hopefully I will live long enough to see it as a successfuil endeavor.
Thanks for the questions,
PS. again, yes you can promote my blog on every social network available. I do not answer personal questions and that will be put into my blog; that is an impossibility for me and others; however I can address these questions in essays of course